We visited the Vatican when I was a child and the thing that impressed me most was the staircase to the top of St. Peter’s Basilica. I was little, my legs were short and those steps were high. I remember it so well, even after so many years, the building was cold and the stairs seemed endless…until we hit the top; the view was breath-taking, even for me as a child.
The day started out so good! I am 3 weeks smoke free, I feel so confident and happy, nothing can stop me now! I will never smoke again!
I feel like I have superpowers and the sky is the limit. So many others are struggling with temptations, not me. I have a few cigarette cravings now and then, but nothing dramatic and they never last long. I feel so strong!
“Don’t fool yourself…you might die of smoke related cancer anyway, the damage is done, you can’t reverse it” that’s what a member of the support board wrote to me, after I posted how fantastic I felt. It upset me so much. How cruel, how rude! What is wrong with this guy? I just quit smoking 3 weeks ago and I am so proud of myself; I feel fantastic. “How dare he” I can do the math myself. Yes, I smoked for 35 years, so what are the odds? I thought about it some more…
How would you feel when a child smokes? Kids might be drawn to smoking and chewing tobacco for any number of reasons — to look cool, act older, lose weight, win cool merchandise, seem tough, or feel independent/ Would we ignore it? Would we walk away and not care?
It’s going to be 2 weeks tomorrow ! Smoke-free since 14 days! I learn more and more about my addiction to Nicotine, some things I read are eye-opening, other articles raise more questions. If Nicotine is addictive, that makes me an addict? If I am an addict, can I stay smoke-free? This pill is hard to swallow. I always thought about myself as a smoker, I never looked at myself as being an addict. That’s makes me damaged good doesn’t it? What if I am damaged beyond repair?
I would like to give future ex-smokers an advice! When you quit smoking……..don‘t do it alone! Make sure people support you in your home and at work. Tell your friends about it; don’t just assume everybody will know how you feel. The internet is a blessing, read and research as much as you can. We are all different! What works for me might not work for somebody else and vice versa. Fighting an addiction like smoking is different for everybody!
Quitting smoking is like riding a roller coaster, but blindfolded and without a seat belt. You never know whats going to happen next. It throws you from left to right and all you can do is trying to hang on and you try not to lose the grip! Let’s face it….quitting smoking is harder than I thought it would be!
I looked at my chalkboard and it made me smile; it showed a big 5! Wow almost a whole week smoke-free! Most of the time I am fine, but yesterday I had a craving and it was different. It hit me like a freight train and came from out of nowhere. It lasted a little bit longer as well -maybe 20 minutes, but still…..it didn’t kill me. I had more and more questions on my mind. I wanted to talk to other people like me; I wanted to find smokers like me who just quit …but where?
I have this kitchen decoration on top of our fridge, it’s an Italian chef holding a small chalkboard. It’s too small and I can’t really use it for anything. I wrote a big 3 on it! I haven’t smoked in 3 days…and I can honestly say I felt confused! What was happening?